Be honest

Am i really that easy to manipulate? Hate me, scream at me and i'll still be there in the morning, ready and willing to dry the tears you cry. He could cheat on me a thousand times, though i don't believe he will, and i would always take him back. She can yell and scream and swear, cursing me all to hell, but i won't leave her side. You could try and break me, but i'm so shattered inside, i'd just let you stomp down the peices.
I don't think it really matters. I don't guard myself anymore, the chance of something good is worth the hurt it carries. So i let myself get hurt a couple times? I doubt it will kill me, and if it does, its all because of my personal weakness.
But i think she was right in her tyrade. I havn't been a good friend. Not to her and not to anyone. I'm not a good girlfriend, i'm not a good friend at all. I'm just who she said i was.
Stupid bitch who does nothing but cause pain.

I don't want to, i just want everyone to be happy. I want to make people smile and laugh, to feel lovely and beautiful because they are. Yet all i do is hurt and break.
Why can't i make myself be better?