Kelsey.

She knocks on my door and asks me this. "Do you want to stop?" I was so confused for a second there. She makes a motion down her arm, and my head drops. I didn't want to bring anyone else into this, but here she is, small and sweet, asking me if i need her help.
My whole body starts to collapse. I feel like all my bones have turned to jelly.
But i look at her and tell her not really.
She understands. It hurts so much that someone that sweet has to understand.
The story comes out in paraphrase. I have a deal, i have a boyfriend, i'm cutting down. And she tells me that she stopped with her boyfriend, and about the deal they had. It takes all of three minutes. But she tells me to be safe.
And tells me its okay that i don't want to stop.
Now i have someone to run to if things get really bad. If i screw it all up. She tells me that she can get me help when i go to far.
I'm so comforted but so sad. Cause she's so lovely and adorable...
But at least she's stopped. I don't know how far i can let this get here, but at least theres someone. I never would have expected it to be her though.

She hugged me and i never wanted to let go. I hate adding new people to the list



I moved this cause she doesn't want anyone to know. And if i ever give the blog away, i don't want her to get found out.