State of Confusion

I know, i know. This may not be the place for my utter confusion, but i need to ventify, and i don't know where else to do it.
If you don't want to hear about eric, stop reading now.

I'm confused. I think i must have done something wrong, or stupid or something, cause suddenly theres a crazy gap betwen us. Things were good and awesome and i adore him to bits untill we got up this morning. Almost as if we stopped being together as soon as we were out of bed.
And i hate myself for that. I don't know what i'm doing wrong, i'm trying, but maybe its me... again.
Maybe i'm just another fuck up, again. Or it could just be me over reacting. But i hate myself for noticing him pulling away, and knowing its cause of me.
I just wanted to be happy. Its wrong, i know, but this time i REALLY don't know what i'm doing wrong.
Such a great night, and such a fun morning. I let myself fall for him, and i can't imagine what happened between the time i left for the shower and the time i got back that made such a difference.
How am i supposed to keep doing this? Maybe its all about just being happy with the times he likes me, and ignoring thoes in which he seems to hate me.

Maybe i'm just a fuckup again. Wouldn't suprise me.

Don't call me pretty anymore, its obviously not true.