Worried

I don't want to tell eric what happened, because he will either leave me, or try and kill chris. And both options scare me. I'm so confused right now...
I know that i didn't want this to happen.
I know i didn't do enough to stop it.
I know i must've given him the wrong idea.
I know i told him to "be good" when i thought things were starting to get outta hand.
Apparently one warning doesn't make a smart high chris.
He's already apologized, but the sound of his voice makes me flinch. Reminder of how i fucked up. I analyze whats happened and it's this odd sort of progression.
At first i didn't know what was going on. Then i did, but didn't care. Then i knew, and wanted it to stop... but was scared to stop him. Then i knew, it was out of hand, and i had to stop him.
I don't think he got that.


*sigh* Tell me when to stop analyzing... please