fuck him

I'm crying inside
screaming for some peace that I can't seem to find under his gaze
he used to be so nice
so comforting, the perfect guy
but I see now that side of him he said he had but I hadn't beleived in
his evil side

everyone has one I know
I just hadn't beleived I would garner its attenchion from him
why do I feel so dirty?
I just want to peel my skin off my bones
rest in the most comforatble places
let it regrow scared and ugly
my true form

I want to be told its ok
I want to beleive it.
for once I want to beleive everything they tell me

*shakes head and screams*
I hate this.