Happily Lonely

I want to scream. It hasn't been a day and yet i'm pathetic enough to miss him.

No one else makes me feel the things he does, and i want it so bad even though its not for me. He doesn't think i'm beautiful, doesn't love me back. I'd think its just for sex but i'm so ugly that can't be it. Maybe its for comfort, for the fact that i love him.

Why am i so stupid, pathetic, lonely?

Why can't i just let it be?