its all for show

To realize that one of your friends, one of those people that you consider to be…akin to you in some way is…isn’t. I don’t know.
To see, for my self that she doesn’t care anymore. I never thought a person could stop caring about things like that. Things like their health…or even the small material goods in their lives. When do you stop giving a shit about that stuff? I don’t know what I’m supposed to do. What do you do when that/those individuals give up on things like that and won’t communicate with you? Do you still try and be there only to be shunned each and every time you try and talk to them? I don’t know. I don’t know.
I would love to give up but its not in my nature. I can’t do that yet and I’m not sure why I would ever do something like that. *shakes her head*
I don’t know…