A Loss of Self

It hurts. I don't know what to do, not sure where to go, who to trust, who to love. I don't know.
Uncertainty washes over me as i abandon myself to these so called feelings in so called friends. I want to be closer but i'm afraid to let go.
Freckles of anger flick along my skin, leaving me torn and tainted, not special, not pretty, just marked, but for who?
What is the point, who is the purpose, when you have to sit and actually wonder if you've made the wrong choices, and how far is too far?