a shiny pennie

and this is me, the thing that they say I'm not.
I know that I love him
I know it, I can feel it in my bones
but why couldn't I have waited!?
I'm such a whore. a slut. a skank.
useless and ugly
horrible and evil
I didn't freak out, I didn't think about it...or rather I did I just like to think that I didn't. I was a little scared but he comforted me. Made sure I was ok with out words and I know that it was good, and that i'm happy about it. Nothing like fo-first time...I don't even know what I'm bitching about
ignore me

fuck
fuck fuck
*thud*
what am I to do with myself?