Banned

I'm having trouble shrugging off the idea that there are people that hate me...I don't like that idea
I try and be nice to people, everyone. I mean I know not everyone got a christmas card but I honestly ran out! And not everyone is nice to me either...why send them a card when i know they don't like me much?
It just sucks when you put a lot of time an effort into something and then get , fucking, kicked out? For what? watching TV? whenever someone comes into the room we ask if they want to change the channel or do something else...I mean its not like we made them fight for anything. We know our place
I guess we didn't
I just feel like such shit about it
Right when I thought I was getting along with a bunch of people and that they psudeo-liked me I get slapped in the face with the reality that; no they don't like me and yes I am a horrible person.
I give up.
I shall just fade into oblivian again, fuck that shit. The whole idea of people has just died in my mind again.