So Long and Goodnight

I can't love a boy that loves me back.
I'm stuck on guys who either don't see me or don't want me. Maybe cause its safe, maybe cause its hard.
But it hurts, and i need to let go. I'm oddly happy with just Helix, just laying, just being calm and apathetic. Yet every time i leave my house to see other boys, or just to go out, i get so hung up.

I see Garrett... and i know he likes me, i'm aware of the fact that he'd love me and be good and sweet, but he's so possessive. I'm a little to scared for that.
And then i see pooky, or paul, and i know that they won't come near me, that they'd never like me. Which drives me crazy, how all the pretty boys will only want pretty girls. But there's nothing about me to make them like me.
And i can't settle...
I hate myself sometimes.