maybe

I wish i wasn't weak, that i wasn't in this body, that i had the energy to make myself beautiful.
Because maybe then he'd like me, maybe then he'd touch me, maybe then he wouldn't laugh.

Maybe he'd treat me the way he treats her.

It breaks my heart because i want it, because she has it but won't take it all. No ones ever looked at me like that, touched me like that.

I want it more than i can say, but i'll never speak that out loud, because he'd say i'm being jelous and stupid. Well, maybe i am, but i'm allowed. It's not that he loves her more, its that she can't love him back.

Maybe i'm deluded for thinking i can.

Maybe i'm stupid.

I just want to be loved.